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Voices From
Victims of Grief
This has been the hardest thing I have ever faced. I loved my husband from the first time I met him on my Grandpa's farm and it has never been a thought to walk away. Georgia is very tough on crime and love to brag about it. My husband is a model inmate, has completed every program including his GED. It has never gotten any easier, I realized I am not in control of anything the Dept. of Corrections decides to do with my husband. I am able to visit on Saturday & Sunday and by God's Grace I have only missed a few visits. I can only embrace my husband when I get there and before I leave. There is no kind of touching or your visit will be terminated. The correction staff use their power if they like an inmate or not. I have seen it all, staff harassing inmates visitors just because they don't like the inmate or they feel inmates should not get visits. I keep thinking if only they knew what this is like, how this feels. They act as if we are criminals and have no compassion. I worry every moment about if he will be locked down, transferred, exposed to some kind of disease, stabbed or killed.
No one really understands how this feels unless they have actually endured it. I pay the bills by myself the phone bill is always high because I have to hear his voice just to be able to sleep that night. When my husband is not able to call everyone tells me I shut down, I won't talk, eat or sleep until I hear from him or find out if he is alright. Thank God he has made trustee status which means he works in the front and they will tell me if he is alright.
I feel as if I work seven days a week because I work five and go see him the other two. People don't understand this life and most feel people in prison deserve to be there. You learn really quick not to trust anyone and the games that are played. Inmates are jealous of others happiness especially if they have no one to come see them.
If it were not for my faith I don't know where I would be but I know we have made it this long. I have endured a lot over the years and I know exactly the pain of having someone you love in prison. I can only to continue to pray for the families of the incarcerated, that they be given courage and strength. These inmates need there families support because if they only have their chain gang friends we have a worse criminal coming out than going in. God Bless!
